With An Angel On My Shoulder: WW: Not Thriving

The Poem That Inspired My Subtitle

A Song for Daniel, Stillborn
by Jean Felice Eilbert (his mother)

When I held you in my arms that day
Born so still, born anyway
How was I to know to say goodbye?
No one knew just what to do
Except tell me I'd get over you
As if forgetting makes it all untrue -- a lie

But I remember to remember
I can't forget just to forget
Your memories are a part of me
Connecting me to what comes next.

And even after all this while
I think of you, sometimes I smile
Memories of my unknown child, fade slow.
I've held you in my heart each day
Life so short, life anyway
Memories are meant to say hello.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

WW: Not Thriving

(crappy webcam photo)

I took this
as sort of an update
to my
Word of the Year photo

8 comments:

Kristina P. said...: This breaks my heart, Ter. I am sending you lots of e-hugs.; August 11, 2010
Audrey said...: Sending love, thoughts and prayers your way.; August 11, 2010
Sarah Coggins said...: :( Thinking of you.; August 11, 2010
Jenners said...: Oh Ter ... this photo just breaks my heart. You look miserable in the photo. I just don't know what to say.; August 11, 2010
Laura said...: :-(
Thinking of you and praying too.
Hugs-
L; August 12, 2010
Caitlin said...: I'm so sorry that you aren't thriving Ter. NOt that I blame you, of course, but I do wish the best for you. Hoping today is the best day in a while...; August 13, 2010
Country Mouse, City Mouse said...: I think of you every day and really wish good things for you.

xox; August 15, 2010
Oonie said...: Thanks for the update, even if it's not the one you wanted to send.
Keep it around as a reminder of what you are after, not as a recrimination of who you are now. It's also a hope for who you will be.
You've been through so, so, so much. Heal. Breathe. Be.; August 19, 2010