With An Angel On My Shoulder: The Lucky One

The Poem That Inspired My Subtitle

A Song for Daniel, Stillborn
by Jean Felice Eilbert (his mother)

When I held you in my arms that day
Born so still, born anyway
How was I to know to say goodbye?
No one knew just what to do
Except tell me I'd get over you
As if forgetting makes it all untrue -- a lie

But I remember to remember
I can't forget just to forget
Your memories are a part of me
Connecting me to what comes next.

And even after all this while
I think of you, sometimes I smile
Memories of my unknown child, fade slow.
I've held you in my heart each day
Life so short, life anyway
Memories are meant to say hello.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

The Lucky One

On February 8, 2002
He asked me to marry him.
The next day he included this in his daily note to me:
"I'm a lucky guy. Most guys don't even get to date a girl like you, but I get to marry you."

He was wrong.
*I* was the lucky one.

I miss him.
♥

5 comments:

Oonie said...: Don't kid yourself--he was lucky too. You had such a gift in each other. Hoping you can focus on the sweet on this bittersweet anniversary.; February 09, 2011
Caitlin said...: What a sweet note and a wonderful memory for you! HE was lucky too, Ter, you are a strong, funny, amazing gal! I'm sure he still feels this way!; February 09, 2011
Sarah Coggins said...: How wonderful to have that note. I think you were both blessed to have each other. ((HUGS)); February 10, 2011
Country Mouse, City Mouse said...: What a treasure to have kept the note!; February 12, 2011
Beautifully Mended said...: What a treasure that note must be to your grieving heart! Brings tears to my eyes.; February 21, 2011