With An Angel On My Shoulder: It's My Birthday (and I'll Cry If I Want To)

The Poem That Inspired My Subtitle

A Song for Daniel, Stillborn
by Jean Felice Eilbert (his mother)

When I held you in my arms that day
Born so still, born anyway
How was I to know to say goodbye?
No one knew just what to do
Except tell me I'd get over you
As if forgetting makes it all untrue -- a lie

But I remember to remember
I can't forget just to forget
Your memories are a part of me
Connecting me to what comes next.

And even after all this while
I think of you, sometimes I smile
Memories of my unknown child, fade slow.
I've held you in my heart each day
Life so short, life anyway
Memories are meant to say hello.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

It's My Birthday (and I'll Cry If I Want To)

(Dec. 1998 - the oldest pic I can find of us together, before we started dating.)

I met this dude on my 18th birthday.
He eventually convinced me to go out with him.
(It only took 5 years)
and then, one day, we got married.
I miss him.
Happy Birthday to me.

9 comments:

Mary said...: Happy birthday.; December 04, 2010
Sarah Coggins said...: ((HUGS)) Happy birthday, Ter! :); December 04, 2010
Lexie said...: happy birthday Terri!; December 04, 2010
Debby@Just Breathe said...: Happy Birthday. ((HUGS)); December 04, 2010
Shea said...: Happy Birthday Ter. Sorry it's a sad reminder.; December 04, 2010
Leslie said...: Happy Birthday Ter! I hope too many tears aren't being shed...; December 04, 2010
Unknown said...: Seems inappropriate to say Happy Birthday but I hope you had a decent birthday. I hope the pain is a little lighter each day, although you'll always miss him. HUGS!; December 06, 2010
Jenners said...: This is just a bad time of year for you isn't it? I wish you had more to be happy about on your birthday ... but I'm wishing you a happy one anyway.; December 06, 2010
Caitlin said...: Happy birthday Ter, I am sure your family is thinking of you on this day in Heaven! Hoping that it isn't too hard today...; December 06, 2010